making it out of delaware isn't making it.

i wish people would stop considering leaving delaware doing something so spectacular.  leaving delaware doesn't mean a damn thing. you're still the same person, trying to do the same things (which probably aren't going to happen), and without some new motivation you're gonna be stuck in the same place- sitting on your ass. did i leave delaware? yes. i've done a lot of traveling since i left for college and got to see many different places frequently. but am i going back to de? it's very possible. it's a great place to raise children. the food is great. and it's close to just about everything with of course some exceptions.  the only people i would say need to leave are those pursuing careers in the arts. go to a bigger city for allat.  i encourage people in delaware to travel, but for goodness sake appreciate what you have!



and the cost of living in delaware is cheaper than the average in the US fyi.

update

been mia from here for a while. did a lot of traveling ::harrisonburg -- richmond -- delaware -- chicago -- delaware -- ocean city, new jersey -- delaware -- harrisonburg:: and i lovedd it.

after my chicago trip i'm really thinking about grad school out there. it's such a great city. like nyc but cleaner as my aunt would put it. i hate that i only see her once maybe twice a year. everything is just better when she's around. and i love spending time with my cousins. they're at an age where they could really use me around and i would love to be there for them.  i just can't imagine my life not on the east coast. i was so sure i needed to be closer to home after undergrad, but maybe it was just closer to family in general. still haven't brought the idea to my dad and i'm pretty sure he would hate every bit of it. the thought of not having him around really bothers me, but i don't want to get sucked into the rest of my family drama, which is beyond possible. i don't know what to do.

shit i still need to get into grad school first.

leaders.

"If your actions inspire others to dream more, learn more, do more, and become more, you are a leader." 

-John Quincy Adams 

see you later OPAs, thank you springboard.

"You are who you are and what you are because of what has gone into your mind. You can change who you are and what you are by changing what has gone into your mind." 

-Zig Ziglar

(via Liz Klemt) 

thanks dr. warner

received a thank you email from Dr. Warner today. being a part of this orientation team has really been an amazing experience and i can't imagine what else i would have been doing with this summer. in the email there was this quote: 

"Some people come in our lives and quickly go. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever, the same."

-Flavia

I just want to dedicate this post to the amazing 2012 O-TEAM. there is not a lying bone in my body when i say each of you inspire me in a different way. i can easily look at one member of the team and think of something distinct that i admire about them or that they bring to the team. i've gone through a lot personally since joining the team but any time i'm around these great people i just can't be sad and it's good to have people like that in your life. people that appreciate you for who you are and make the most out of the little things. my only regret is not finding them sooner. 

and to the alumni, thank you for continuing to motivate and inspire us. our rough days would have been a lot rougher without your encouragement, words of wisdom, and simply your happiness when you come to visit. thank you, thank you, thank you. 

i truly love you all. 

we are one.

as i was thinking one day about my LSs and the stuff we have going on in our group chat, i realized why we ended up together in the way that we did. we are all so motivated and driven to make something happen. none of us are the kind of women to sit around until something happens upon itself, and that passion for action is so beautiful to me. it reminds me of our 22 dynamic founders, although that is a group of uncomparable women. of course we can be too passionate at times and that could lead to minor disputes, but you tell me what sisters don't fight and i'll show you a fake ass group of females. there's no sugar coating with us and i appreciate that to the fullest. i love each and every one of them, but i could rant about that all day so i'll spare you.

DELTA SIGMA THETA IS THE OOOOONLY WAY!

"There is no passion to be found playing small - in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living." 

-Nelson Mandela  

"You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."

-Winnie the Pooh 

content

after the last couple days, i realize how content i am with my life. i know i'm working toward grad school and this last year of undergrad will most likely kick my ass, but in this very moment i'm happy. really happy. my family is healthy.  my niece and nephews brighten my thoughts each day whether i see them or not. my friends are AMAZING. despite disagreements we have genuine fun together whether it's simple stuff in the house or we go out somewhere.  i appreciate them more than they could ever realize. working for orientation has also made me grow drastically as a person, and i didn't expect it at all so i cherish this growth even more.  i know i'll be working in the office until february, but when everyone's contract is up i don't know what i'm going to do with myself. each person on this team has a light that shines differently in my eyes and each possesses a quality that no one else on this team has.  it's a beautiful thing. i'm in love with life.

i can't do it all

lately i've been getting back into that mode that i'm in during the school year: do this, do that, add this too, gotta get this done by then, write this down, DON'T FORGET THIS!, dammit i forgot that, sleep?
i hate this mode but somehow it easily becomes my norm. my to-do list is a page long, half of which is filled with things i need to buy, and not that my paychecks are so weak i can't live, but it is hard to do some of the things i want to do and still be comfortable. i've been looking for a second job but i'm scared it's going to burn me out. i could definitely use the extra income though. then i considered working two jobs during the semester too but everyone tells me not to. i just hate asking my dad for money. he does so much for me already and works more than one job i don't see why this is different. i gotta work something out though. i will work something out. 

feelings vs. thoughts

I was introduced to a really cool concept today about feelings and thoughts and how they're not as intertwined and controlling as people often think. feelings are pieces of information that let us know what's going on inside of us.  it's extremely important to acknowledge these feelings that we have so that they don't eat us up inside and try to knock us off our feet and also so that we can be fully okay with whatever is going on in our lives. 


you do not always have to act on these feelings though. that's the most important part of this concept. for example, you may feel like you should kill someone but that does not mean go kill someone (clearly). just acknowledge and progress from whatever point you're at at that moment. 


thoughts on the other hand, can be controlled a lot more. i always used to think my thoughts controlled my life, especially laying in bed at the end of my day and thinking about the things i put off during the day while i'm so busy. BUT you can easily stop your thoughts and either think about something else or go do something else. it just takes more of a conscious effort than people feel like putting in.  of course there are times where things just bother you, it happens, but don't always let your thoughts "control" you, which goes back to acknowledging your feelings in the first place.