BREATHE...RELAX...BE HAPPY

I know plenty of young women (including myself) that have genuine battles with anxiety. I've sought professional help for it, but it's also a battle that requires some will power within yourself. Just sharing some little messages that help me breathe a little easier. I apologize if you're not a Christian as I incorporate God into my stress relief techniques, but this is also my blog sooo......

• When life knocks you on your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray 
• Today I will do what I can and let that be enough 
• Anxiety happens when you think you have to figure everything out. Turn to God. He has a plan. 
• Stress makes you believe everything has to happen right now. Faith reassures you that everything will happen in God's timing. 
• Live less out of habit and more out of intent. 
• Myth: when things change I will be happy; Truth: when I am happy things will change 
• I love the person I've become because I fought to become her
• Never fake being okay. Ever. 

Sober Sally

Many knew, some didn't, but I recently went 28 days without any alcoholic drinks whatsoever. No, I wasn't on any medications, nor was I pregnant, it was just a personal choice that involved me and my relationship with God. I was fed up with the excessive negativity in my life, and although I know God, I needed to just take my relationship with Him even a baby step further, so I decided to give up something that was prevalent in my life in honor of Him.  I have seen people do this before with other things, and then of course there's Lent, but I'm also not Catholic, and as with everything else in my life (especially my religion), I needed to make it personal and meaningful to me. 

"How does giving up alcohol bring you closer to God?" was a question I got often. I'm 23, my friends range essentially from 21-30, and we commonly drink when we socialize. I went to a party school...we always drank when we socialized...we even drank when we studied (I got good grades cut the judgment). So while I am by definition no alcoholic...it's a habit...and I'm a creature of habit. A habit of mine also included not praying enough, which was my alternative to drinking during my fast. My goal was to say a prayer, talk to God, or even just say "Thank you" every time alcohol came up in discussion, was around me, I passed a liquor store, anything. I wanted to make my communication with God a habit that would continue long after the fast concluded. 

I had some friends attempt to do this with me, which truly warmed my heart. I had another friend say they were going to try it just on their own time. I'm not entirely sure their purpose in doing so was as spiritual as mine, but inspiring people to do so or even making people aware of my purpose in doing so, possibly leading them to want to reevaluate their faith is more than satisfying to me. My goal in life is to positively serve other people, and I found comfort in spreading my testimony with my friends. 

My month of sobriety also overlapped with my uncle's series of "power" (yes, inspired somewhat by the show) sermons at the Transformation Christian Worship Center. I won't share all my sermon notes (because I'm writing a novel longer than this blog post), but I will share the scriptures, and offer the invitation to join me there whenever you'd like. Definitely a relatable person to receive the Word from that still keeps it real (and you're still out in time to watch football lol). 

Proverbs 22:1 
Philippians 2:7 
Deuteronomy 30:19
James 1:14 
1 Corinthians 8:6
Psalm 62:5
Romans 12:12 
Mark 13:34 
Matthew 8:16 


The following scripture was probably my biggest inspiration throughout this journey. Read it, process it, and meet any trouble that approaches you face to face with it. 


"'Behold, I give you the authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt you'" 

Luke 10:19

Patient Appreciation

I met a (new to me) patient a couple weeks ago. She said she had seen something of mine with letters on it, and asked if I was "a red and white lady" as she put it, and then told me she was a "pink and green lady". We laughed and joked while I took her through her exercises. She was an educator for over 40 years, and continued to tell me things that were just awesome. It was great to just talk about amazing people in the Divine 9 in general and share such an appreciation for our common interests, regardless of the fact that our choices usually carry unweighted controversy. 

The next time I worked with her she had to get rushed to the emergency aid unit during her session. Scared me for a brief moment, but reminded me to cherish the people that bring positive energy in my life. I've been doing a decent job at weeding out the negative shit, and I love to keep the ball rolling.  

And one time for the sawrahs...

OOOOOO~OOP! 


(this was supposed to get published last month smh..)

Morning Thoughts...

Thursday, July 24..2014.

Today is my aunt's birthday. My second mom. My mother figure. I won't ramble about how much I love her but I do, so so so much. Can't wait to call her later and see if her surprise got to her house yet. 

Yesterday I was talking to a patient about her granddaughter, whom I met, and she is a remarkable young child. She was born deaf and had an operation when she was 8 months old that resulted in everything developing slower that the pace of a normal child. You would never know it looking at her today though. And she has a genuine artistic talent that is striking. Designing her own clothes, sculpting, and having a painting on display in the town. Mind you she hasn't even hit double digits yet. I see crazy potential in her and I was only around her for 15 minutes. I hope she fulfills it living out her passion. 

Some news earlier this week hit me like a ton of bricks, but I couldn't be more thankful for it. I feel at peace, at ease, and like what I'm doing is right. I know I always thought shit would happen a different way, but God did what He does and told me He's in control. So I'm going to seriously trust what He's doing right now, because He sent me someone that is truly wonderful and a joy to be around. I'm free. I'm happy. 

I want to quit all of my jobs and just live life. The end.