beginning of the end of the beginning

so much has happened in the last few weeks. i had an amazing birthday celebration with most of my best friends in the entire world and a special appearance from my pop. then i rolled right into endless work for 1787 August Orientation which was possibly busier than Springboard. it was actually pretty upsetting because we saw the rest of the o-team a lot less and the work in the office was so stressful it took away from enjoying our last week of work. then the stress from step practice every day was added in, and trying to still be a good friend and not neglect the people who have always been there for me. then there's the side note that something that seemed so promising ended before it even started.  

my first week of senior year will be over in 5 hours. i can't believe it's here and going already. there's so much i want to do and so many people i want to affect. of course people always have their opinions about me and that's fine, but i want people to remember me at jmu as someone who did for others while remaining true to herself and enjoying it every step of the way. being too busy to enjoy senior year is my biggest fear but i have faith that it will be all i imagined and more. 


"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." -Dr. Seuss


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selfish and selfless

the last couple days have been overwhelming and stressful for me. slight anxiety attacks, grumpiness, and not enough hours in the day. i hate being like that because i don't want people to see me as lazy or a complainer. then i came across beyonce's new video for World Humanitarian day performing "I Was Here" which is one of my favorites from her. it explains exactly how i want to be thought of, especially as my time is ending at jmu. after watching the video i realized how selfish i've been acting and snapped back into how selfless i should be. i work in an office dedicated to helping others, and i participate in organizations that have the purpose of helping others. now i need to remove this negative energy and refocus on the selfless behavior i want to exhibit.

"BE THE TYPE OF PERSON YOU WANT TO MEET."

What will you do?
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wait.

"Self Mastery is key...When faced with any difficult decision, wait until you have a clear answer before taking a step that you may regret. Emotions are wonderful, but they must not be allowed to take precedence over wisdom and knowledge. Remember—control your emotions instead of letting them control you. Think before you leap:)"

-Joyce Dungee Proctor

21.

the week of my birthday is now over. last weekend i saw two of my three best friends that are still in de. spent my actual birthday with my dad and my close jmu friends. spent the weekend with my absolute favorite people ever. my friends are like my family. they know me like no other and are there for me no matter what. i wouldn't have spent my birthday celebration with anyone else, and i love them with all my heart. this has been a weekend for the books.

happiness

"Live your life so that your memories are a part of your happiness."

maximum capacity

as the year approaches, and i begin to review in my head what i need to do and what i will need to do as the year progresses, i'm realizing how much room i don't have in my life for nonsense. i know people say this all the time but family nonsense is particularly on my mind this morning. some of the same problems have persisted in my life for so long that i'm becoming numb to them. there's no way to change how some people are and what certain situations are. what's the point in continuing to be upset? especially when people are only fake giving a damn about me. my limits are slowly approaching with my family and i'm not distraught in the least bit. i just pray that the Lord continue to give me strength, health, knowledge, and happiness as i quickly progress through my last year of undergrad.


"Surround yourself only with people who are going to take you higher."

-Oprah Winfrey